It's Really Painful...

Now my heart just like pierce by a knife...
Really don know wat I can say...
Really...
Really...Hurt...

Still Love Her...

Already few days after she told me her choice...
Although I know I don have any chance...
But...How come I still wan 2 continue 2 love her?
Mayb this time I really fall too deep d...
Although I know I will hurt myself more in the future...
Although I know at the end I will get not thing...
But...I think I already make my decision...
I think I will just continue 2 wait 4 her...
Waiting her 2 come back 2 me...
Mayb some of u sure think that I'm an idiot bcos I wan 2 wait 4 a girl...
But...The fact is...I already fall too deep d...It's too hard 4 me 2 4get her d...
It's too hard 4 me 2 put down my love 2 her...
I still love her...
She is too important 4 me now...She is already bcame a part of my life...
Sometime I really feel jealous...Bcos he was a lucky guy bcos she like him more if compared 2 me...
I still love u...Still concern about u...Still wanna hug u & b wif u 2gether...

Suddenly dream about her...so far...but...so clear

Yesterday I cried until tired d then I fall asleep in front of my pc...
By the time I wake up...I only know I only sleep 4 few hours...
Yesterday I suddenly dream about her...
This is the first time I saw her in my dream...
In the dream...I was so happy wif her...
But don know y...
I feel that...although I'm beside her...but...then I feel our distance r so far...
Mayb is bcos I realize that is just a dream...
Mayb...
But still...So far...
But...So clear...

餘震 from 張敬軒...A nice song...Link is included at the end of this post...

离去的如废墟中得救
光荣地脱身
期盼的是彼此不伤害
却已不可能

共你再恋早知是余震
让重伤的心再添缺憾
还剩低的寄望最后也牺牲

你的吻像龙卷风吹过
怎可对抗这吸引
身贴身如海啸冲击我
使我向下沉
再走近是我完全难自禁
就算知道实在太愚笨
到底一刻也算是缘份
天地沦陷
余震是痛苦中一丝兴奋

怀缅的如美景一幅
那灾情未发生
期盼的是彼此不伤害
却已不可能
仍然愿靠近
谁又理朦胧夜里天沉地暗
余震是浸没痛苦中一丝兴奋

余震是靠在你掌心永远被困

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T5DrjjdhvjU&feature=related

Thx 4 everything...

Sunday,August 23,2009...
2day is the bday of my blog...: )...
But it's also a sad day 4 me...
She finally make her choice...
But...the one she choose is not me...
Although I'm sad...but...as long as she is happy then it's enough...
Although I wan 2 hate her...but...I just can't...
Actually from that day I wif her,I already told myself not 2 fall so deep...
Bcos there's some1 in her heart...but...by the time i realize,I already fall in love wif her...
She is a gentle girl,when I'm sad,she is always around me & trying 2 make me happy bcos she don wan see i sad...
She is nice girl...although I'm always emo & make her unhappy or sad...but...everytime she just say nvm...she say she wont angry wif me...no matter wat mistake i make,she will just 4give me...
That's y I told myself,if she like him then just go ahead bcos I wan she b happy...
I just hope she will b happy & the guy will apprecieate her...bcos she is a good girl...It's true...
I just wish both of them r happy...