Its been a century since my last post...><... Sori 4 didnt update my blog... Now I'm back~~~ Finally I can get a whole month holiday but it was quite boring bcos I got notthing 2 do & need 2 stay in home if I can't find any part time job... haiz... But nvm... At least I can chat wif those leng lui leng zai at home...><... One more thing 2 update~~~ I DYE MY HAIR~~~ But...no pic will b update... I will update it ASAP~~~ ><... HAPPY HOLIDAY & MERRY CHRISTMAS 2 ALL MY FREN BCOS X'MAX IS AROUND THE CORNER~~~ (don 4get my Christmas present~~~) HK & Irene,don 4get my present...><...
Last time I fall in love wif a girl from ktar... She is the first girl that I fall in love after I enter ktar...^^... Actually after I changed college,I plan 2 keep the feeling in my heart... But 2day while chatting wif her,I suddenly feel like wanna tell her that I love her... Then at the end,I really tell her d... Actually I didnt hope so much bcos I tot myself have no chance at all... But wat make me feel surprise is actually that time she also like me... But now its too late le bcos she have bf le...& they just started recently... She said when she is wif me,she feel warm & happy...I'm surprise when I heard that... Now quite regret d bcos if that time I told her,mayb now she is my gf d...><... But now I can't do anything d since she have her bf le...^^...
SO MY ADVICE 2 ALL THOSE GUYS THAT HAVE SOME1 THEY LIKE,PLS TELL HER THAT U LOVE HER B4 SHE GOT BF!!!DON WAIT!!!><...
2day really was an unlucky day 4 me... When I wake up,I realize my hp button spoiled d...Cant adjust the volume wif the button d...HAIZ... I almost missed my bus bcos of the stupid ktm... Luckily I manage 2 reach Kepong Sentral there at time,if not the bus will leave me...><... When I reached college,I went in2 kitchen(cafe 87) 2 see is there anything that I can do bcos it was really bored at KDU square... So I go help Ms Gan 2 cut the mushroom...HAIZ,here is another bad thing which had happened 2 me,while I'm cutting the mushroom,she came & said:"The way u cut is wrong,ur lecturer never taught u how 2 cut things?" Then she grab the knife & showed me how 2 cut,she asked me use her method,then I just follow the way she cut...Then I accidentally cut my finger...Then she came & straight shoot me wif her machine gun...She said:"Ask u do thing but u break thing(in cantonese),go back,don come here kacau"... The way she said it,make me feel a bit irritated & unhappy bcos I just wan 2 help... HAIZ... Luckily there was notthing happened during my service class... But when I took the 6pm bus back,I saw Ms Gan again & she still mention wat happened in kitchen 2day...She chat wif Ms Lye Leng,she said:"They all same same de la,ask them do things,all only know break thing or bring more problem 2 me" When I heard that,the 3 words (WTF) appear in my mind,in my mind,I was thinking that I just wan 2 help u & I accidentally cut myself but u just say until I'm like a rubbish... Really unhappy...But wat can I do?She is lecturer & I'm just a student... I only can keep quiet...Now I understand the feeling of some classmate from cafe 87...
2day quite tired... Bcos wake up early 4 my french tuition... After my french tuition,I went out wif Lay Wen(a leng lui o~~~) which knew me since primary school... She really didn't change a lot...Almost same wif last time,still so 38...><... V went 2 neway 2 sing k...><...She is still same like last time,not dare sing out loud...><... But her voice is quite nice one,if she can sing out loud,I'm sure she will b the one who have the best girl voice among my frens...><... After finish singing in neway,v went 2 watch movie,v watch "ORPHAN",it's storyline is quite good... By the time v finish our movie,it's already 9pm so v were rushing 2 the monorail 2 take monorail bcos v need change 2 ktm at KL Sentral also...Quite mafan...=.=... V chat a lot about us in the monorail & ktm,she said I'm different wif last time...><...Don know is good or bad...><... Time passed so fast,while v were chatting in the ktm,v already reached Kuang station... Her mum fetch me back 2 my home,really apprecieate her help...><...2day really have a good time wif her...^^... But quite tired also...><... Lay Wen,thx 4 accompany me 2day...^^...
Already few days after she told me her choice... Although I know I don have any chance... But...How come I still wan 2 continue 2 love her? Mayb this time I really fall too deep d... Although I know I will hurt myself more in the future... Although I know at the end I will get not thing... But...I think I already make my decision... I think I will just continue 2 wait 4 her... Waiting her 2 come back 2 me... Mayb some of u sure think that I'm an idiot bcos I wan 2 wait 4 a girl... But...The fact is...I already fall too deep d...It's too hard 4 me 2 4get her d... It's too hard 4 me 2 put down my love 2 her... I still love her... She is too important 4 me now...She is already bcame a part of my life... Sometime I really feel jealous...Bcos he was a lucky guy bcos she like him more if compared 2 me... I still love u...Still concern about u...Still wanna hug u & b wif u 2gether...
Yesterday I cried until tired d then I fall asleep in front of my pc... By the time I wake up...I only know I only sleep 4 few hours... Yesterday I suddenly dream about her... This is the first time I saw her in my dream... In the dream...I was so happy wif her... But don know y... I feel that...although I'm beside her...but...then I feel our distance r so far... Mayb is bcos I realize that is just a dream... Mayb... But still...So far... But...So clear...
Sunday,August 23,2009... 2day is the bday of my blog...: )... But it's also a sad day 4 me... She finally make her choice... But...the one she choose is not me... Although I'm sad...but...as long as she is happy then it's enough... Although I wan 2 hate her...but...I just can't... Actually from that day I wif her,I already told myself not 2 fall so deep... Bcos there's some1 in her heart...but...by the time i realize,I already fall in love wif her... She is a gentle girl,when I'm sad,she is always around me & trying 2 make me happy bcos she don wan see i sad... She is nice girl...although I'm always emo & make her unhappy or sad...but...everytime she just say nvm...she say she wont angry wif me...no matter wat mistake i make,she will just 4give me... That's y I told myself,if she like him then just go ahead bcos I wan she b happy... I just hope she will b happy & the guy will apprecieate her...bcos she is a good girl...It's true... I just wish both of them r happy...